I know I say this alot, and damn it one day I am going to do it.
I want to regain control of my life and emotions. I never knew post partum could have such an effect.
I want to start doing yoga again. I want to eat healthy. I want to clean my apartment completely. I want to put Ellenie and myself on a schedule. I want to read to her more. I want to be more for her. I want to get life situated. I want to cook dinner. I want my husband to be home at nights, but this will take a while.
We are in the process of actually looking for a new apartment. I feel like this is going to give us a nice clean start. This apartment was Matt's, it had all his things his arrangements, his mess (not that I didn't contribute later) Our new place will have our things, our home, our love, My decoration (hehe) It will be ours to build together. We want two bedroom, so that will clear clutter of all Ellenie things, and it has to have washer and dryer hook ups, that will clear our ever battle with laundry.
We aren't going to go out as much. I told him I would much rather just stay at home and spend time with him. I don't know why he feels like we need to just go out and get smashed. One or neither of us always ends up having a bad time, we spend alot of money , and I just want to be with him and have quality time. Nice cooked dinner, watching a movie at home on the couch. I get 1 1/2 days a week with him. I don't want to fight with someone else for his time or attention.
The belly monster is slightly sick. We took her to the doctor today. She's congested and has a slight cold. No need for medicine unless slightly feverish.it absolutely destroys me when she feels sick. She did weigh in at 13lbs 10 oz! Oh what a healthy little chunker I have!!
I really want to learn how to knit. I tried reading stitch and bitch but I just can't figure out this process with a book and pictures. I think this is a hands on thing I will have to learn from someone else. I really want to get Ellenie (and myself) a few beanies for cold weather
Fall please come and stay, Winter is too cold, and Spring makes me sick. I don't look good in Summer clothes , so Fall is my pick!